today, 13 MAy 2007.

GP exam is next week. GPP is due next week too. My life is just so sucks. I felt like closing down that frisbee club. It is really pathetic. Last friday, only 5 turned up for the training. Some msg me and told me that they can make it but in the end, where did all of you disappeared to? stand in my position and you will know why am i so farked up with all those attendance and attitudes things. Because i am starting to doubt their passion towards frisbee. Some of them just gave me stupid excuses not to turn up. Can't you understand how i feel? Or is it just me? Is it that i set my expectation too high? Oh well. Maybe i am lacked of leadership skill because i fear of losing friendships. that happened way back in st john. what am i going to do? i am so loss as those people who i thought would help me, gave me more troubles. Arghhh... i am really on the verge of breaking down.

argh... GP exam next week, GPP due next week. Life is so stressful. I don't see the point of having PW. The newpaper reflected on it, and i felt that it was very unfair. My grade will be at stake if i happened to get a teacher who is very unfair which i really really hope not so but .......... Just wait and see.

Anyway, i am more tanned than last friday. Woohooo and i am happy for that. Haha.

sometimes, i wish that i am your other half but reality just mould my thinking into a 'no'. when can i ever get you? when? i cant bring myself to forget you because i see you almost everyday. you are my emotion, my motivation and i will be at loss if you are not there. arghh. what should i do? why did i fall for you in the first place? why can't it be other people? tell me why!..! i am suck a freak.