'I have no idea what was i thinking at that time, but i am just attracted to you.'

Had a real 'good time' chatting kim. Haha, i guess i am lamer than her. Wentworth Miller isn't hot at all ok! Stop crapping. He is uncomparable to my cup of chocolate drink. Haha. Lets work hard for our module ok? And your post kind of piss me off. Change it! If not i am not going to change my msn nick!

1 more day to the exam.
2 more days to the marathon.
I'm not mentally prepared yet.
Luckily, i didn't sign up for the full marathon.
If not, i won't be here.
And yeah, i saw Aminah after work. Though i went out with her days ago, but i still miss her.
And Yvonne, pray that i will get my pay on this friday! ^^


Is 28 of nov a doomsday for me?
I didn't know that i need to work, until my manager called me and ask me to work.
I sent the wrong crappy msg to my manager.
I fear that i piss her off.
Failure of the exam is haunting me.
The shadow of working paranoids me.

Basically, i hate today, i totally screwed up everything. But i love the stars.
and I LOVE KIM TOO. She saved me. I owe you one. Big one.


Topic of the day: What do i miss?

After the diploma, i miss going to school with claudia. i don't miss sok leng because i always go to school with her WITHOUT FAIL.
I miss 06B4.
I miss the E3s..
I miss kim's lame jokes.
I miss roshini's quite-ness
I miss... i miss... i miss working oga. when can i ever go there n work?

Oh my god. Some anonymous peson send me some youtube videos. Hmm. Who is this 'someone'? Hardogei? Haha. I'm in love with hip hop! I wanna learn. But don't think i have the time. haha. Anyway yvonne can u please update ur blog? It already pass two days. Haha.
Ms junn. You got to teach me! TEACH ME. If you teach me next year, i will.. i will reward u with tempur. ONLY IF YOU TEACH ME! TEACH MY CLASS!! [You know how much tempur cost right, so teach me.... its worth it.]


Oh ya. James send me a youtube video link yesterday. It's about how to earn lots of money just by saying one sentence. 'i will cut your penis and balls.' and there goes, people extorting other people just by using this dumb method. haha. If this method is really effective, i will be a millionaire now. NO! maybe a ZILLIONAIR! haha. Seriously, mad tv rocks to the core. Love it to max, especially the grey's anatomy. haha. its damn funny! and the video about nelly furtado. oh my god! i simply love it to the max. alright i am going to youtube-whoring now. mad tv.. here i come! haha.
And.. Ms Junn might teach MOB next year! Oh yeah! Ms Junn u better come back! If not.. If not.. If not.. haha.. why should i tell you? fancy went for backpacking without me! What is this? Its ain't fun without me, you know?!?!


oh yeah! i finally survive thru the whole IT stuffs. it kinda bore me off during lesson. its damn dry ok! imagine siting there for 3 hrs listening to RAM, Bits, FTP, screen resolution, blah blah blah. i hate it ok! and what is bits? what is bytes? i totally have no idea at all! its coming out for test for NOT sure. probably! someone please help me with this IT thingy!
well i'm happy that i finally finished that crap project on IT again. hopefully i will pass this module so i won't this freaking IT stuff anymore! so I MUST PASS! haha.
i have collected that race entry package. the sleeveless shirt looks a bit .... light blue with lime green stripes. not that nice! they should have give us the original design which is black with white stripes! argh.. so cheapo! haha. nvm at least i bought my adidas shorts at a discounted rate. yeah! haha.
apparently, i have no life. to be exact. i have no life after 11pm. nothing to do. boring. BORING! u know ITS BORING! and i wanna watch flushed away! i wan to watch all the cartoons. say that i'm childish. i dun care. i can even admit that i still watch POWER RANGERS! =P
i wan to watch triumph in the air or sky. whatever. i want to watch it NOW! please... give me the money to buy the vcds.. i need to watch it badly! mad tv is just a subsitute.or rather, to waste my time. i love the madtv newlyweds video which starred jessica alba! haha. damn lame and retarded. 'after marriage, she's mentally retarded!' haha. moral of the story is.. dun get marry. it will ruin ur life. haha. =P
i just dun understand why ppl are mesmerize by lu kun when shin kun is much more better! what the hell! shin kun is better so dun argue with me!
1st dec going to be a hell day for me and 3rd dec gonna be worse. 10 km, 2 hrs plus, why did i participate? i must be insane. i hate running! but i love frisbee! haha. get me a spino frisbee and u will be greatly reward but i want the latest edition with shin kun's signature on it! haha!
entertain me now, or else i'm out of here. alright. i'm out


i'm exhausted. so sleepy right now. to think that i still can blog. ha!. running ard my hse like a madwoman trying to get my project print. darn computer. kept on lagging like hell. from my project to kim's. hai. why can't some people just think? hai. stil have to go to sch tmr . argh.. got to drag myself there. come on anna. just think of the rewards! haha. yeah. alright, i'm out of here.


yesterday was filled with hell loads of fun. haha. did a small little test about IT in the morning. it was damn difficult. thinking abt passing? Fat Hope!. after everything, i went to meet nick. haha. intended to treat him his first ice cream, ben and jerry, but i have no $$ left. hai. and then he went to watch deathnote without me. so sad! no lah. he went into malaysia and my passsport wasn't with me. moreover, i am meeting azimah and peeps in the evening so can't go. sobsob.
so at the evening was where all the fun and laughter started. woah! step up is real good! and its so cool to dance with high heels. me? forget abt it. i can't even walk with high heels on. haha. and aminah said 'i can't imagine anna dancing.' ya ya. i will do a combination of chinese opera and traditional malay dance to piss u off. haha. nah. i'm kidding. haha. i like the dance steps and stuff, like the music. woah. my body can start to wriggle with it....but i'm shy. so cannot dance. LOL. damn sad that i only took one pic with them. boohoo! hai. nvm. escape theme park is on our way. but i wan to watch flushed away first! and because of that movie, i missed my show! my 10pm show! sad u know! nvm lah. gathering mah, what can i expect right? hee. ok its so dumb to take a lift just on top of ur desired level. with is 1st level. we took it at 2nd level and it went all the way down to the basement. nvm. just press 1st level and we will stop there --> thats what we thought. but but. the lift went all the way up to 2nd level again, our original level. IT DIDN"T STOP AT THE 1ST LEVEL AT ALL! what type of lift is this? haha. its time for the cathay to repair the ast level button. GO GO! haha.
ok. i shouldn't eat the popcorns and share the drink with aminah. now i am getting more sick. sick in the head and nose. haha. bloody hell. nose block. oxygen can't go inside my lungs. haha. but strange ar, i can still can blog here. hai. didn't go to sch and i even backed out from the outing. yvonne and shihui! i am so sorry! i should have listen to both of you! i shouldn't all those heaty food and stuff. i'm filled with guilt now.
JAM TO THE MUISC! shake it oh shake it..shake it oh shake it. i love step up! GALS AND BOYS ROCK YOUR BODY TO THE MUSIC!


oh my god! what the hell is claudia and sok leng thinking? they have been talking about cards since last friday. UOb card lah, what mini card lah. -.-!! i know i know, i am only 17 years old. haha. i bet that they will be talking abt it tmr again. no until the diploma finish. hai. i'm always the outcast. hey....ya.... hey ya..[ think of the outkast's song] it suits me a lot. haha.
oh damn. i'm sick. sick in the ass. haha. i'm mad. okok. i have to study for the mini test now. its 20% u know. u better study! -->> thats what kim said. haha. you are qualified to be my mum. LOL. =p


Lately, after the SLE camp, i was damn busy that i didn't even have the time to think of you. is it a good or bad? i dunno. my life revolves around the diploma, work and play. but i just hope to see you. i can only say that i miss you.
she said that my mouth should be more sweeter. haha. but how? and roaches can bite? oh my god. it freaks me off!
'MAJOR' event of tmr: someone from james cook is coming to give a talk. i bet that my mind will drift away and my soul will wander ard tok tuck. lol.
yeah! finally azimah miss me! see you this tues. lol.
alright. i have to turn in soon. its late. SL is scary. late for 4 times. lol. good night ppl. n stop that longan thingy. i am so embarrassed by it. longan --> longkang. anna wake up!


OMG!... i saw a cutter in orchard just now! haha. a wandering cutter!..poor cutter. right KIM CARTER! haha. =p


sok leng and yvonne laughed at my pronouciation for longan. what the ... how to pronouce it? argh. i will be dead tmr. argh..


no mosquitoes, no cockroach, no ants, no other strange insects but sandflies. no wonder all are so swollen and bloody red! haha. its just that my body attracts sandflies. ya i know, my blood is sweet but they don't need to do this to me! no sunning--> thats the ultimate price i have to pay. i just wan to be tanned! and i even plan to kayak this week. hai. everything just crushed on to me when i went for the consultation. ahh...! i dunwan to do any shopping. sometimes it really bore me off. i just need to do some sports for survival. if not i will rot to death. i hate sandflies!
this time round. mosquitoes are the evil ones. they are cruel but not as cruel n evil as sandflies. argh..i want to kayak!
darn piss off now. ah. [i am piss off with sandflies. haha]


i will never ever forget what he said to me. yeah. haha. i saw charmaine and elieen yesterday. haha. charmaine is thinner now.


ok. lets have a recollection of events for last week.well, it has been a hectic week for me. everything were being cramped together. have SLE camp on wed to fri. it was a enriching experience for me. sometimes u need to keep quiet and look at whats happening, if not u will not solve the problem at all. obviously, its hard to cooperate with ppl of different mindsets in one grp but eventually we did. the teachers made 15 of us cramp on top of a circular stone. those ppl on the side were on the verge of falling but we made it thru. there are team building games which are so dangerous yet fun. haha. second day was the high rope elements. ahhH!!! i was damn scared. ok i admit. i am afraid of height. but actually its quite fun lah. i wan to try it again! haha. kayaking was fun. ok. the most interesting part of this camp was, I FOUND MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND! haha. he was in the same class as me during pri 6! haha. sorry that i forget about it. we both found each other familiar but just didn't talk to each other until the second day of the camp. haha. the high rope elements brought us together. i mean reunite as friends. haha.

but mosquitoes over there have this love/hate relationship with me. some gave me love bites, some bit me on my face and most bites swollen like like.. just swollen. they are big and red ok! argh.. freaking mosquitoes. the most evil ones. i dun even know how to attend lesson tmr. every bites are so swollen. hai. =(


went to vivo again. hai. same old place. its just like a air conditioned orchard. mini orchard. dun really like the place much. might because its not fully opened...? haha. yeah. maybe. and serene is such a... freak? haha. no. she's sort of crazy. fancy listing down all the movies. god. so pervert! haha. dun watch but i'm a cheerleader not really that nice. nip/tuck also have. hey meet up soon k? in fact we have to, because my acc notes are with you. anyway good luck for ur acc test ar! stop thinking of failing lah! haha.

you are killing me bits by bits. ahh...!


oh god! i am reaching a point of no return. apparently, damn stress. hah! how can someone possibly be stress during holidays? he or she must be crazy! and indeed, i am one of the crazy people. damn. countless of sleepless nights, went to work with a very sleepy mood, i dun even have the mood to attend to the customers. how i wish i can switch myself into the sleeping mood. today is tight. i mean the schedule. hai. i dun even have the time to pack for things for the camp. argh.
hai. countless of sleeples nights, its all becoz of you. why why why? why am i in such a situation? if that night is repeat again, i'lltake the initative to sit beside u and talk to u. i miss that very one chance. miss it means miss it. there is no return...no return.. do u know that i have been waiting for years! do u know that? how i wish i can see you, whenever i walked down the streets of that town. but, it's still the same. if..if.. i happen to see u again, i'll take out all my guts and approach u. i know.. i know..


had a fun day working in og albert today! i wanna work there again! can u please put me there? T.T haha. anyone wan to change? gosh, i'm falling in love with it. haha. not exactly lah. i'm staring to like the people over there. the people from Oto, alvin and auntie angie! haha. yeah! without them my day there would be damn bored. i can be driven to tears. oh i mean bored to tears. haha. ^^ anyway i got to know this person over there. her english name is yvonne and guess what is her chinese name..*drum roll..YIWEN! OMG! haha. wah. so coincidence. maybe its my destiny to know people whose chinese name is yiwen and english name is yvonne. lol . funny. right yvonne lim yiwen? haha. =p
argh.. why serene haven't sign in to msn? my eyes are closing. please come online quickly!!

I don't remember when it happened.
I'd get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It's a little awkward that I keep saying to you that "it's nothing" and that "my heart's just trifling"

Is this love?
And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand would be to become me and feel them.
I'm already inside of you, just how you're inside of me.
I don't know if we've gotten used to the meaning between us.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I'll make up for all the time lost.

I'll be with you and give you only good memories, so in return you can't leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I'm loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already

ok. finally she's online. thanks god that i manage to wait until now. haha. my endurance is something which need to be praise right? *thick skinned.


have been slacking for the past five days. either go out n cycle or stay at home and sleep. after today, haha. i'm starting a hectic week ahead. no more slacking. work, work, then diploma. argh. almost messed up my schedule yesterday.
so what did i do for these past five days? i cancelled all my friends outings and went out to cycle alone. dun ask me why. after that night i am like this. just wan to be alone. cycle all the way to yishun. sat on a chair and reminisce my childhood. hai.
i am saddened. saddened by this thing. hai. and serene faster come online! argh..


Don't speak, seal your lips.
Please don't say a word, maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard.
I see that you're in love, I know it's not with me.
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory.

It's never too late to relight the fire
It's never stopped burning for me.
The flame, it never died inside of me.

How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late.
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years.
I'll take the tears.

I sit and reminisce of times that we once shared.
You gave me more than love.
But never thought I cared.
My feelings were all for you.
Although it didn't show.
I only told you on the day you let me to go.

how am i going to get over this?
its eating me up bits by bits.
i just hope that u are right here with me now.
:(


sometimes, i would wonder, who the hell i really am?? who can really understand? no one can. i am totally sick of this life. why can't i express myself on that night? why? why am i letting that just one chance went pass me? why? sign. argh.. i should buck up more!
years passed, and i am still the same. argh.. what should i do? what should i do?


.depressed + moody.