SUPPORT PAUL TWOHILL..!!
ha.!
i am mad after watching sg idol.
these guys rock..
each and everyone of them actually sang so well.
excellent..!!
i am nt sure.
but u came into my life when i was feeling very down.
u saved me from the hands of darkness.
u opened up my heart.
and,
i can feel u.
as thou u are right beside me now.
i miss u every hr, min and sec.
and i thank u for everything that u have done.
but i am wondering,
what are we now?
right now,
i am nt sure what are u thinking of.
are u serious abt this?
cos i can sense that u don't at all.
u just wan to be my ..... ??
hai.
i think forget abt it.

*i will be incomplete without u in my life. =))


what the heck..!!
12.10 am and i am still struggling with my accounts.
hai.
i seriously need sumone to teach me accounts.
hai.
went to galley just now,
to pass steve this calamine lotion.
but i also wan the calamine lotion,
becos i have a lot of mosquitoes' bites.
nevermind.
i shall endure till the end..!!
dun scratch..!!
haha.
this makes me think of the valamine lotion cheer.
haha.
long time never sing it already.
ok.
went to sp with hazirah.
she crapped alot.
haha.
can't really tolerate it.
and end up crapping with her.
haha.
she kept on saying ' whatever '
yaya..
whatever..!
-.-!
ok..


i admit.
i still can't get over him.
somebody please save me.
save me out from this suffering..!
i dunwan to suffer anymore..!


yucks..!!
i am so disgusted with some stuffs...!


let me see..
james's wife just gave birth to a healthy baby boy..!!
comgrats..!!
but,
desmond's grandma passed away.
dun be sad ok?
people are missing in my life now..
first was 4E3.
then nick.
after that roy.
and now desmond.
they just vanished.
i miss the days
where we would play after work.
practically the guys would play ice throwing.
haha.
miss them lots.
especially on new year day.
we saw lots of fireworks across the straits.
though it was a tiring day.
but we still do have fun with each other.
i miss the days.
where in which,
we would go out and eat after work..
especially to geylang..
i miss the you tiao and many other foods..
i miss the days where nick would always step on my shoes.
haha.
miss him so much..!!
ha..! ya
i wan to mention abt herman.
woah.
today he totally changed my perspective towards him.
haha.
nvm.
haha.
went to eat supper with sandy after work.
ha..
anyway.
shuyun..!!
be strong ok??
if u need a shoulder to lean,
i am always here for you.
see i am soo good..!!
haha..>.<


i'am in love..!!!
haha..
>.<


don't speak
Seal your lips.
Please don't say a word
Maybe i won't remember the words i have not heard
I see that you're in love
I know it's not with me.
But i don't want the truth to haunt my memory.
It's never too late to relight the fire
It's never stopped burning for me.
The flame, it never died inside of me

How is it now that i can tell you i love you
How is it only now that it's too late.
What can i do?
The love that we had is torn in two.
So you take the smiles from all of our years
I'll take the tears

I sit and reminisce of times that we once shared.
You gave me more than love
But never thought i cared.
My feelings were all for you.
Although it didn't show.
I only told you on the day you let me to go


am i doing the right thing?
am i making the correct decision?
am i regretting it?
am i?
am i?
him..
him..
and
him..
pratically only him...


ah..!! today was my GP mid year exam..!!
so damn sian.
i dunno how to tackle those questions at all.
haha.
i am prepared to fail it..!!
anyway. after GP paper,
i waited for sok leng abt 30 mins.
ya.
played with terence frisbee for a while.
after that went back to canberra with james, cheuk yin and sok leng.
aww..!
didn't know that today was the what parents nite for sec 4 n 5.
so sucks.
majority of the teachers wnt back home to change.
even ms lim.
hai.
couldn't chat with her at all..!!
we only managed to find mr siva.
then as for ms tay,
we chatted a bit.
then came to ms wong.
haha.
be4 that she said,
' i need to go to the toliet to make myself look HANDSOME...!!'
haha. she mentioned the word HANDSOME..
then she wanted to correct herself,
but somehow the word pretty was stuck in her throat..
lol..
funny funny..
I MISS 4E3 ALOT..!!
4E3..!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4E3..!!!!!!!!!!!!
u guys, have make a huge impact in my life..!!
<3 4E3..!!
<3 Frisbee...!!


can sumone pei me go walk walk after school tmr??
but that sumone must be YOU..!!
if not i dun think i will have e mood to go out..!!
>.<
HCUM OS UOY TNAW I
<3 you only..
43v3r yours
and this song is dedicated to you.
more than words,
my one and only.


should i be in school now,
i would be in accounts lesson.
getting back my test papers.
haha.
wat can i say??
i think i flung both test.
no hope for first test.
erm..while for the second test,
though i could get the net loss,
but i can't balance the balance sheet.
that was so suxs..!!
i miss u so much..!!
just by seeing u would me make fly.
just by hearing u calling out my name,
would make me die for you instantly.
i just can't stop liking u so much..!!


Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if
I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words


i fall for someone who i shouldn't have fallen for.
its against the law of nature...!!!


woah.
its been five days since i last posted.
nevermind.
been quite busy lately.
i never get a break at all for this week.
have to study from mon to fri.
then fri and sun i need to work.
on sat got this MI carnival thingy.
after that i still need to go to my cousin's house
for her one year child's celebration.
i hate to go there.
cos everyone will be asking where r u studying now?
and i have to re-explain whats MI and whatsoever.
haha.
tired.
i don't feel like working today
but,
eventually i went there.
cos they have already put my name down for today.
so i have to go..!!
argh..!!
so tired...
around 6 plus,
a lot of customers walk in for dinner.
till 9 most of them disappeared.
and galley became peaceful again.
haha.
everyone was slacking.
then mdm lee took out this ice cream which was spolit.
and she said.
does anybody wants to eat?? if not throw it away.
oh my god.
when u look at it.
u might puke.
don't even think about it.
then today desmond gave me a cake.
haha.
so sweet of him..!!
but,
he kept on messing with my hair.
made my hair so messy everytime.
haha.
ah..!! still gt one incident
today i came earlier than all of them,
was because i missed the van and the taxi driver drove very fast.
then only sandy knew that i took a taxi.
the others don't know.
especially bilan n yau yan auntie.
haha.
both thought i cycled there.
but i didn't..!!
they said how did u come here?
then i said,
oh by 211. (which means by walking)
there they said, by bike ar?
theni said no.
nolah i took 240 ( which means taxi).
then after work.
yau yan auntie said.
y dun u cycle me back home.
then i said no.
i didn't bring my bike today..!!
after that the van came and we hopped on to the van.
after that yau yan auntie siad.
y don't tml i cycle ur bike home?!?
then after that i laughed..no..
i said so many times that i didn't cycle here.
then she said how u come here?
then i said by 211 lah.
then she said..wats 211??
then i siad by two legs lohz.
200 would be bicycle u know??
haha..
after that got this guy on the van, he asked whats my age.
then she said 18 ar?
i said no.
after that i said what!??! i gt look so old mehz?
then yau yan auntie laughed.
and she said she 17 lah.
then he said oh..!
after that he asked me u know the lady in front of u ?
i said ya. my colleague.( it was a china lady)
then he said oh..!!
then i said u wan to woo her is it?
then he said nolah.
after that yau yan auntie laughed and said sui za bo.(pretty lady)
haha..funny funny.
then got one part.
desmond asked this china guy,
so u come from which part of china?
i forgot wat he said.
but after that i said to him.
i am from shen zhou u know..!!
haha..
oh ya..
i am so damn TOUCHED that yvonne wrote a letter for me.
woah..!!
though we were from different class and now in different school.
but we can still maintain this best friend friendship.
its hard.
but,
i really thank god for letting me know yvonne this best friend in my world.
she is the only person who i sort of like can pour all my sorrows to her.
and she always be there for me during my difficult times.
i love her so much..!!!!!!! ( as a friend)
hope our friendship would not end here..!!!


what a day today..!!
haha.
my dearest MB teacher didn't come today.
so shiok..!!
haha..
but this teacher gave us this ws to do.
we have to pass it up by end of the day
but i dun think anyone did.
haha.
oh no..!!
06B4 is goin' to get it again.
lol.
nah.
who cares.
haha.
most of them r worried abt the carnival thingy.
sum even got stress up over it.
i guess.
coz i saw an uneasiness on their face.
so sad..!!!
yvonne couldn't make it for MI carnival.
hai...
=(
test, test, test n test...
no hope for me.
guess i will just flung everything.
wat worried me most is that
i am scare that i can't pass my promos.
hehe.
nvm.
take one step at a time n see how.
but,
seriously,
i dun feel like going to sch tml.
haha.
=p


its a no no n no..!!
for me to fall in love with u.
its abt feelings n emotions.
nt like ........
get wat i mean?
its impossible for me to be with u.
if it will to be,
there would be a change in gender.
then i rather be a les.
seriously.
no.
i only treat u like a friend.
there are many other gals out there
who r much more better than me.
sorry.
but i also can't forget abt him.
i like him very much.
sorry.



where r u???
i miss u dreadly..!!!
i need u so much..!!!!!


argh..
just came back from work.
woah.
i just battled a tremendous war.
my god.
today is the WORSt mother's day i ever have.
though i am not a mother.
terrible day to be a cashier.
2 cashier were nt enough.
but there i still customer who was very cute.
nt really caute.
i meant as in her actions.
usually when customers waited their bill for a very long tym,
they would complain.
but she did nt.
instead,
she even encourage both of us nt to give up.
she said,
endure..!!
jiayou worx.
kampateh..!!
haha..
i appreaciate it a lot.
thats the first encouragement i ever receive from a customer..!
will rmb it in my whole life.
just wanna say a BIG THANKS to u..!!
and,
today i gave my first flower to one customer.
haha...
is nt that i like her ok.
she is a mother.
i just feel that since the club gave us free flowers
i might as well give this flower to the customer
to make them feel happy.
=)
happy mother day to all..!!
ok.


argh..
just came back from work.
woah.
i just battled a tremendous war.
my god.
today is the WORSt mother's day i ever have.
though i am not a mother.
terrible day to be a cashier.
2 cashier were nt enough.
but there i still customer who was very cute.
nt really caute.
i meant as in her actions.
usually when customers waited their bill for a very long tym,
they would complain.
but she did nt.
instead,
she even encourage both of us nt to give up.
she said,
endure..!!
jiayou worx.
kampateh..!!
haha..
i appreaciate it a lot.
thats the first encouragement i ever receive from a customer..!
will rmb it in my whole life.
just wanna say a BIG THANKS to u..!!
and,
today i gave my first flower to one customer.
haha...
is nt that i like her ok.
she is a mother.
i just feel that since the club gave us free flowers
i might as well give this flower to the customer
to make them feel happy.
=)
happy mother day to all..!!
ok.


woke up with yawn its dawn and
i'am still alive
turned on my radio to start a new day
lets get them DJs chatting
how to survive
amazing got got on the airwaves
tonight, love is racing
tonight constellation
tonight love is racing my way
almost another day.
she's a shooting star.
good night
good night
she's a shooting star
good bye
tonight, love is racing
tonight constellation,
tonight love is racing my way
almost another day.


anna...
anna..
whats wrong with u..??
hai..
i have no idea.
this is so shyt..
hai..
i am in the closet..
do u get it?
in the closet..
i dun tell anyone abt it except for my dog.
its so damn confidential.
its not that i dun trust anyone
but i dunno how to say.
love is harder than crime
and
i have no idea y i like u.
hai.
and
y i always hurt myself?
its so stupid.
i wan u.
i seriously wan u.
but i dunno how to tell u.
i seriously dunno.
oh gosh.
stop it anna..
stop it..!!
stop thinking abt it..!!


ha.. ytd was amazing..!!
i went to kbox again.!! haha..
this time was nt three of us..
plus one more..jian lin...!
haha..
funny..
we even sang festive song.
like we almost sing the cny songs but we didn't
then came the jingle bells. haha..
the video was sooo00oooo cute.
cartoon one.
haha..
i kept on singing pieces of me.
aiya no hope.
coz i am soo00oo in love with ashlee simpson...!!
lol..
her songs rock..!!
hai..
i wanted to sing true colours by phils colin
but it was nt available.
what shyt is this??
lol.
ok.
i wan to go n watch my drama.
blog again next tym
PS.. just now rocks.
haha.. talk with sandy n desmond in galley for 1 hr..
lol..
so funny..!!
we talked abt u, u n u..!!
lol...
>.<


i feel like crying
but some how my eyes are dry.
i feel like dying.
tears from heaven dropped down on me.
how i wish
it is able to
wash every part of him away from me.
wash away my pain,
my suffering
wash away the memories which i spent with hi,
i do not know why.
i am just so into u.
i want u.
i want to be in ur arms.
i want to hold ur hands.
i don't want to be ur friend.
i want to be ur special one.
but i think all these are impossible.
so i tried to forget u.
i tried very hard
but u didn't let me succeed at all.
u just appeared in front of me.
why?
why?
why?
why did u make me suffer for nothing?
why?
why?
i do not want the pain.
why?
why?
why are u so good to me?
is that how u treat the other girls?
i am so scare.
i am so scare that the demons inside me will unleash itself
and take over the old me.
i don't want this to happen.
i miss u.


I miss you
I miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same
Oh
Na na
Na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened you passed by
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back


woah..!! juz finished doing that MB thingy. FINALLY..!!!! haha.. alright wat took me so long was because on one hand i did the MB project and on the other hand, i chatted with jian lin. haha.. that white white chubby chubby guy. lol..!! if i see u next time.. i will surely pinch u and say 'SO CUTE..!!!' haha. chatted with him abt bleach stuff n alot. haha. quite a nice guy anyway. haha. with all his craps wat aizen good or ichimaru eyes are nicer. bullshyt. noth of them look so evil..!! haha. alright. i need to go n replenish my energy already. blog tml.!!


jian lin ar.. jian lin ar..! see the song which u send to me is making everything worse again..!!! hai...nvm..anyway take care ya ok? haha.. rmb my pizza wors..!!!! c u make me cry again..

it would be a lie to say that i have forget him entirely. it would seriously be..


hey gal..this is for u..!! be strong ok?? no matter wat u must hold back ur tears when u go there. dun cry. i believe that he also dunwan to see u all crying rite? hold till tml. then u can cry the way u wan. i will lend me my shoulders to u for sure. ok??

alright. today was quite a fine day. woah i was save by the chinese compo thingy. lucky mrs heng never go thru the textbook if nt she gonna ask me to pay $6 for the textbk because i never bring it along. haha. so lucky..!! ok. ah..!! i wan to talk abt PE..!! it sux to the core..!! extemely. oh my god. today was so tough..!! i almost have cramps..!! hai. too bad. thats the way it is. oh my god. that 5BX. 1 set is enough to tortue us n my PE teacher ask us to do 3 sets. n there were intervals whereby we need to run around the hall for 3 rounds. my god..!! i was so dead at that time. haha.

yeah..!! i am looking forward to this friday. coz i am goin' to kbox again..! hmm.. same old ppl goin'. haha.. nvm.. its fun mixing wif u two. lol though i seriously dunwan to be a lightbulb.. haha =p haha sooner or later, kbox is goin' to be my new buddy..lorraine is planning to go in june again!!!.. haha so fun.

oh ya..!! forbidden city is cuming back to singapore..!! haha.. anyone interested to go?? lets go together again..!! i can't wait 4 it..!! haha.. its so nice..!! i highly recommend each n everyone of u to go n watch..!!


ah ha..!! just finish watching bleach ytd. woah. it was so damn nice. n the song... oh my god. ok. ytd after sch, me n sok leng went back to sp de mac to study. saw sum canberraeans. haha. they looked at me n i looked back. dunno why. after that they shouted my name and i said ya? they said hi..!! and i wa like haha..okok.. lol. so funny. after that hazirah came along. after the study session. me n hazirah walked back hm. haha. we walked pass the pap rally and she was like vote for pap.!! lol. she was really sleepy at that time. becoz she kept crapping non-stop. my god. haha.. we took the long route home becoz i also dunno why. nvm. it was fun ytd. haha. yeah. i finish downloading buffy the vampire slayer. haha. juz watch show the first 3 part. it was nice. awesome..! lol


You would have said
Don't be discouraged, you will realise it
I don't take courage
in a world, for people, you can lose that all
And the darkness inside youwill make you feel so small

But I see your true colours, shining through
I see your true colours, and that's why I love you
So don't be afraid, to let them show
Your true colours, true colours
Are beautiful, like a rainbow

Show me a smile, don't be unhappy
I can't remember when i last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy and
you take in all you can bare
You call me up- because you know I'll be there

I can't remember when I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
and you take in all you can bare
You call me up- because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colours, shining through
I see your true colours and thats why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them showYour true colours, true colours,
True colours, are shining through
I see your true colours and that's why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours, true colours
Are beautiful, like a rainbow

=)


alright. lets dun talk abt him. anna..!! get rid of him from ur mind. embark a new journey in ur life..!! ha... alright. gt a really bad news from sok leng...WE HAVE TO SHIFT THE KBOX SESSION TO VESAK DAY...!! and i was like wat the heck..!! haha i just can't wait to go to kbox again. sing n shout until my voice goes hoarse again. lol. its soooo sweet of yvonne writing me a testimonial ytd. but but but...y is it that the testimonial is full of my name??!?! haha...funny lah u. ok. i am open to everything.. coz love is harder than crimes... haha...=) haha hazirah is so bad..!!! wanna say that to him. aiya.. poor him u know. poor creature. haha. aiya nvm lah. look at him anyway. who wants to be wif him?? especially when his character is like.......*speechless* haha.......>.<


P.s. miss u a lot. can't help thinking of him during econs lesson. haha


he's gone, gone in a far far place away from me. i wan him, i need him, i want him to be with me every day, every min, every sec but i don't think it would happen. he has left. left his friends n leave me in this pathetic world. hai. just leave everything to fate. but i really really like him. the hug which he gave me, it was so warm. i just wan to be in ur arms. i wan to be ur everything. i am trying hard to control myself not to cry. its so pain inside. i just wanna tell u that i like you. u r the first guy who i really like n i have like you for 5 mths already. i like u..!! i really do..!! i fall for sumone who i should not have fallen for.


shyt. i keep on listening to pieces of me. haha. use to sing this song when i am..erm..sec 3 or maybe 4. haha. with aminah. miss this song so much. juz sang it in kbox ytd with gabriel. haha. oh ya. i just wanna say. YVONNE..!! I MISS U A LOT..!! haha. just chatted with her. hmm. i think i have nt seen her for abt 1 mth? i guess so. haha. oklah. i will think of u de then i will nt be sad anymore le. haha miss you damn damn a lot..!! alot alot..!! haha.. ok. same old line. i will support u mentally, physically, psychologically or ya and spiritually..!!haha..


i am such a sadist.. i just wan to watch bleach. i used direct download but i couldn't extract it out. damn it. have to use bittorent to download it. damn. must wait for 3 days. what the heck..!! i have not been watching bleach for.. alomost 1 mth...u know 1 mth. its so long..!! this is so sux. hai. coundown to 1 day. he is goin'. i will miss him for sure. hai.. when am i goin' to see u again?? when? when? i dun wanna say goodbye to u at all because i just dunwan to end like this u know u dun wan this to end. i wan to see u again..!! i seriously do. last tym when nick went back, i almost cried. now i dun even know. moreover u r sumone special to me. hai.


oh..today is simply just so damn awesome..!! cycled all the way to ang mo kio to meet gabriel n yvonne. ha..!! actually we planned to cycle all the way to sentosa. but yesterday yvonne called me coz both of us know our own's limit. we know that we have the stamina to cycle to sentosa but not back to home. so, we meet at ang mo kio and went to k box to do wat??!??? of coz to sing lah. haha.. woah. all three of us get so high inside the room. stand on the sofa and stuff like that. yvonne and gabriel even do the MI dance. too high already..! haha.. no choice. oh. we sang this watever , whenever or watever shyt lah. by shakira. woah got one part talk abt the ahem. then we were like oh my god. we didn't know gt this type of thing de. haha.. so funny. i wan a moment like this. but they dun let me sing it coz at that tym it was around 7 plus already. its very late. so gabriel said next time ar next time we go n sing again. then i said be4 vesak day that day..!! lol. i am looking forward to a moment like this by kelly clarkson..!! i wan that song..!!