alright. today's lessons were basically boring..!! expect for my GP lesson which was conducted by mrs koh. she is so good... haha.. like her lesson. guess wat, she asked us to draw our partner's face. haha.. my drawing of lorraine really made a fool out of myself.. haha... i show it to thahara n sok leng. guess wat were their reaction.. they laughed...!! haha.. made me feel so bad..!!! lol.. yeah, make three new friends today.. haha.. oh ya..i forgot to talk about 1 teacher..she is MS CHIA...lol...hai..i am really speechless about her..really... she anyhow suspend ppl from the school..*speechless* just went back to galley..haha..nt many ppl were there. passed sandy those paper which she wants n stay there till 10 sumthing. coz that place is very isolated n there is no one drving me out..!! so have to wait for them to xia ban then edmund can drive us out to sembawang. haha. i sat down at copa there n kept on chatting wif sandy.. haha.. she was so funny. lol. i dunno whether i can go to work on wed coz i heard from thahara n sok leng that wed is cca day. haha. dunno whether can make it. aiya. nvm lahz. dun care abt it first lahz. haha. wait till wed then say bah. hai, i can't really stand my parents. though they are already adults but the way they handle things are way too childish. like for example, my washing machine was spolit n my father said that he is goin' to take out $200 n my mother will fork out another 200 to buy the machine. instead of agreeing with it, my mother said ' wat kind of father is he?' can't he just fork out his own money to buy the washing machine?? wah kao. hey mum, do u know that without the washing machine, u r making ur life so damn miserable, u have to wash every single clothes u know..!!! argh...n she kept on just nagging non stop. my ears are goin' to burst..!! argh..alright i am goin' to sleep now. have to wake up early tml.


i am forgetting u day by day n bits by bits. Just make sure that u dun appear in front of me anymore..!!!!!





Juz woke up, incredible right? for i can sleep until so late? actually its because of that i couldn't sleep. i kept on thinking about him. one of my friend said that i am really stupid, y shouldn't i fight for him? its not that i dunwan to fight, its because i dunwan all of us to end up being hurt. sometimes one's sacrifice can exchange into one's happiness. seeing other ppl happy, i would naturally being happy but then deep inside, my heart is really being broken into thousand n thousand of pieces. If this is e case, i dun think we are able to be friends again. sry.




i am beautifully broken inside of me................................................


for the past few days i just wanna shout out that i like u..!! i wan to be with u..!! but i dun have the courage to do so, i really dun have n because of some reasons, i have to forget about him, i have to. he sux.!!! it is so hard to forget him..it is so hard to get rid of his images in my mind..i juz can't help thinking abt him every moment, every minute n every second...he is the first guy in my life who makes me cry 4 u n he is the first guy who i really really like..
tues - cried because of him
wed - cried because of him
thurs - saw him, nearly break down in front of him.
oh god, i m so damn in love with him..!! how am i goin' to forget him?? i really dunno how...damn. why did i fall for him in the first place?? is it possible that u guys dun ever mention his name in front of me??.....


I LIKE YOU AND I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU BUT WE ARE NOT FATED TO BE WITH EACH OTHER..!!!!