Thursday
24 oct 07

I think I'm starting to doubt
as if he had said something right
do we really have no other choice
but to only quietly obey to let go
what is upsetting is we've made a decision
Not sure who's right or wrong
If I must let go to obtainthen why is there a sense of hesitation in my heartseeing you leave, yet I pretend to smile
how much longer must I endure my frailness
If I speak now
How can I persuade you to stay
this line of affection was it destined to only last this long
can't believe we've reached the end
there's no way we could have return to the past
but I still foolishly continue to draw the line of happiness
seeing you going far
I continued to put on the smiling face
How much longer can I endure hiding my pain
when will I wake up
and believe this is all fate
I will give you up soon
I won't say anything
I could only silently accept
let the words remain unsaid

life is hectic with project work and h1. besides that, my friends are becoming suicidal. what the hell is this? why do they have so many problems?! stop being depressed people. pw and h1 are more impt than your whatever problems. but.. if i'm in their situation, i think the problems will affect me too. haha wth, i'm like slapping myself in the face. thats why i cant really console people. maybe the only person who i can really console is roshini. dont be sad k? anna will give you lots of hugs and kisses. oh maybe no, i dont kiss my friends. nvm, i will get didi to do it on my behalf :D yeah enjoy her kissing k? haha. CHEER UP LAH! you kuku. cheer up! and stop bringing your haha habit in msn. you are confusing me. irony, paradox and contradicting! haha.
anyway this whole week is loved. but my small dirty secret was discovered by some people. arghh, damn sad. :( nvm, its ok.

i hope the time will just stop whenever i'm with you but its impossible and we are always so far apart.